from the first day of school until now,
is the third day of school.
Im watching how he avoiding me,ignore me.
Lols.Maybe i get used to it.
how he add new scar on my heart,im not suprise.
I wonder,he will msg when i cry until mentally break down?
Then i think he wont msg me anymore already.
I cry lesser already.
I really put down everything?
No.Every single thing i wish badly,he crushed it down.
Disappointment overloaded.No point for me to hope for anything.anymore.
No wishes.No hope.No Disappointment.

I remember,this is what i tell myself when i realize i fall for him.
I'm asking myself not to hope that he will fall for me too.
But why?The moment i want to give up,and you give me a hope,
Saying that you like me?
Isn't that a fool?
I'm telling the same thing to myself in the end.

I dont blame anyone.
I dont blame him.i just blame myself.
thought i can change everything.
thought he will love me even im not his dream girl.

Dont worry.I'm tougher now.
I'm started to depend on someone else.
and I always remind myself.Not him.
Haha.
Kok hoe is just friend for me.
and I'm glad that he care about me.
I'm glad i changed him.=D
I'm glad he be with me.

Jason,i start to forgetting about you already.
Be yourself,ok?.And so sorry,you cannot play with bx they all,because of me..
Dont worry.Half year later,you wont see me anymore.
And you can get your better life as before.
So sorry i gave you a bad memory.
Sorry that make you feel so uneasy.
I'm sorry that i couldnt be your best gf.
sorry.
Although im not with you anymore,but i hope you can be happier.
Jason,Jia you...
RAWR.

written @8:22 PM