i guess,he probably forget about the presence of this blog.
and probably wont read what i wrote over here.

maybe,i always think that he very strong enough,
i can be so dependent,relying,
that he will always support me and stand beside me.

until this few days,
i realised i was wrong.
he collapse easily.
in sudden,nobody will alert about it.

i dont know what happen until i read some post he wrote recently.
i thought,
i understand him.but..im not.

he abandon me,he dont talk to me as usual,
he rather find others to talk,
he dont msg me as much as before,
i dont know what's in his mind,what he thinking.
i feel like asking,
but this will just make me sound so annoying,
he will be more frustrated...

hmm.
shirley was right,
i have to be more independent,
be even stronger,than he could be...........
for me and for him.

hmm.first thing i have to do is to stop crying.
"You cannot be a burden to him anymore!"
second thing,stop thinking.
stop thinking what u think might happen,
stop thinking cause he will do what he promise,
all he need just time.

one day,
shoulder for me,will come back to me.
from now,i will keep all the tears in my eyes,
hold all my words in my heart,
i will smile.

dont have to worry me.

written @3:28 PM