Dear our love diary,

Today is our 28th day n oso our 4th week.

I love you always.

I'm sry tt i din tell u the reason i went TS yesterday,I wanted to give u a suprise ma.Sry o,dun angry k?Sayang bak.

Yesterday i din stay bak to teman dar not becos i wanted to go hav fun n leave dar alone.I really du1 to leave dar waiting there alone de.I really wanted to stay wid dar,enjoy every moment together be4 holiday starts.But i wanted to quickly buy the present for our 1st month anni.Actually should go on tuesday de,but suddenly jiale du1 go le.so oni change to wed lo.T.T.just feel lyk hugging dar tight now.

Dar always say dun wan let me worry too much.but do u noe tt dar keep hiding stuff from me oni makes me feel tt i hav not done my duty as a BF well,if not why dar dun dare to tell me straight.Pls dun blame urself again.Dar din do anithing wrong.

Today,i did sumthing wrong again.I broke the promise i made.I crossed the line again.But this time although it's just 2x2seconds,it's enough for me.Sry k?i will control de.wont get addicted de.Haha.

Dar,i did told you be4 tt i love you not becos of hu u r,it is becos of hu i m when i m wid u.I'm sry tt yesterday i show tt kind of emotion.Dar dun blame urself cos dar unable to cheer me up but others can do it.This is becos when i m wid dar,i really felt very comfortable n relax.doesn't nid to hide anithing from my laopo.i dun have to act infront of u.i dun hav to act tt i m happy when i doesn feel so(doesn't mean tt i m sad yesterday).Rawr.

Tt night,i din leave my phone aside,i was tired but i try to stay awake cos i wana accompany my laopo a little longer,cant help it,i really miss u too much.

Dar de fren questioned her:"Why so fast 1?"This is becos they think tt we r from May Intake oso.Not becos of dar is desperate or wad.Dun ever think tt.If dar desperate den i oso desperate lo.Dun simply think ok?Bite u o.

Dar wrote:

[i hate myself so so much.
sobs.
i tend to hide myself,
eventhough i noe somebody is always there to share.
but,
he is not deserve to worry so much.
he is not.T.T]

My response:

Dar say i dun deserve to worry so much, i can tell u sumthing.Dar deserver to be loved and taken care.It is my responsibility to take care of dar.Pls dun hide anithing from me.It is impossible tt i m not worry abt dar.IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

written @8:48 PM