Dear our love diary,

after lecture by dear,
i decided to open this blog.
to share every single thing that i cant express it through speaking.

after this few weeks,
i realized,my jealousy level rising.
eventhough i tend to hide it.but...
so far.still under control.
not that serious yet.
trusting and believe in each other can cure.

and now,
i try to catch up everything.
sports and studies.
i want to have more things to talk with him.
i dont want to seem so useless.
talent-less.

hmm.i think these are just very small thing.
with just little effort,
i can make it.
for him.

all these sound like i had a very hard time with my another half.
but,this is not true.
i enjoy every minute when i be with him.
eventhough he is a little bit over manja-ing me,
make me felt like im the BF than a GF.
haha.

whenever he put his hand behind,
trying to give me sign that he wants to hold my hand,
i feel so warm.
feel like im protected.
i wont lost my way if i hold this hand.tightly.

i dont need hugging or kisses much,
just have to hold my hand tight.
then,i will know..
you will always by my side,
"dont worry.anything happen,i will by your side."

sometimes,
i really try hard to hold my tears.
happy,sad,heartache....

happy,
when.......
"tell me every single thing k?we can share,dont have to hide.i want you to be happy also.ok?"

sad,
when.......
he treats me very very good.and i blame myself for not treating him as good as he treats me.

heartache,
when.......
he said its ok.nvm....
when.......
i feel like im being abandon,because i dont know about what he interested with,
im so stupid and useless.

haha.
i'm even more stupid to think like that and feel so.right my dear??
eeeeeeeeeee...
feel like hugging him tight now!

tml is our great great week anniversary again.
our 3rd weeks.
aww....
i will standby until 12.
i dont care.

i dont mind to become stupid for once again.ngeks.

i heart you,dear!muacks~

written @8:19 PM