im finally back to this moody emo blog.
here is still a place for me to spilt out what im thinking.

today,my trial ends.
but yet.
i think i have phobia towards the last day of exam.
i thought,last day of exam..
will be kind of fantastic,
everyone is kind of excited for this day to come,
everyone is planning some activities for this day.

same to me.
but,
seem like everytime,
what i planned for the last day of exam,
it wouldnt happen.it wouldnt success.
everytime,after exam,sure smtg bad happen to me.
and end up....

haih.i still went out.
but thats not what i hope for.
im not happy.
just like today,i feel so odd when together with them.
maybe yuan xian keep ask me to go out,
since i got ntg to do after exam,
and since everyone doesnt feel like going out,
so i join them.
i dont enjoy like when i sing k with bingxiong they all.

and probably because i thought i still can see dear,
spend sometime with him,
although what i plan cannot work.
but..
i met him not more than 10 mins.
and end up.
im walking alone,
in the rain.

i should join my friends for movie?
but,i thought.....hmm.
i thought i will have our own activity after that.
and i said before that i want to watch that movie with him.
so i reject them.

end up.walking in the rain.alone
i hope i can just stop and standing in the rain.to wash away my sadness.
i hope,he chase me and send me to lrt.
i hope he msg me once i went off to check whether im ok when he saw how heavy the rain was,
that could wet me.
or he might saw me walking under the rain.
or...

i keep on checking my phone,
wonder when he is going to msg me.
but not as soon as i thought he would.

this is not what he want,
so i dont blame him.
i just can blame myself,
keep thinking of something that wouldnt happen.

i nearly bang by the car,
when i running across the road.
i thought they will saw me,and stop for me to cross the road.
i thought...again..
thing will never happen as what i thought......

written @5:57 PM