Dear our love diary,

hmm..
feel so fed up.
and that made me cried at the park in college.
hmm..

after Chemistry exam,he wasn't in good mood.
im so afraid.how?what to do?
when i squad down,and i haven even ask him what happen,
he already answered me:"nothing."

i touched him on his knee.
trying to ask him talk to me.
but...
he moved away his leg.

then,
i walked away to take my notes.
i was thinking,
i should go and accompany him?
or not?
finally,i decide to sit beside him.
at least i can make him feel comfort to have me beside him when he is down.

but..
he stand up and walked away.
hmm.........
im left alone sitting over there with my notes.
i dint join jia le they all.
but sitting alone,
looking at the road.

i dint read,but cry.
i see nothing in my notes,
my mind was blank,
my eyes were tired.
and,i screwed my pure math test.

when Jia le ask me,
"You know how to do?dont know meh?exactly like the question u read.."
hmm..
i wanted to answer so much.
"i dint read just now,but cry."
but,not to make dear feels bad.
i kept quiet.

i dont feel like looking at him.
he dump me,
he said he wont ignore me,
he said he will tell everything to me,
i feel so fed up,
i tried but yet,im not the one that can cheer him up.
who i am?

im not upsad because i cant do the test well.
im upsad,because...
im fed up.
feel like just ignore what i see.
even he is sad,moody,unhappy,
i should just leave him alone....
since my accompany doesn't mean anything.
i've tried.
yet,everytime..im ignored.

T.T!
im tired.
sobs.
he needs me??
i dont know.....

i just know.
the one i need.disappeared.

written @4:47 PM