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Saturday, May 30, 2009

Dear our love diary,

ahhh!!
we make it to our very 1st month dy!

Happy 1st month anniversary,Dear!
^^.
hope u will happy always.love u.

By,Yeannie.

written @9:40 PM

Friday, May 29, 2009

dear..where are you now?
i feel so helpless.
sobs.
ni zai na li..
(hugging rawr rawr.='( )

written @9:17 PM

Dear our love diary,

today.
not a good day.
today is the last day seeing each other,
before the holiday starts.

T.T
and everything happened today,
not good at all.
thx to me...........

if i dint keep nagging dear to play volleyball,
then all this wont happen...

plan dint works as we planned.
we planned to spend one hour with each other alone,
but im too playful.
i wanted to play...so keep nagging dear to go and play.
So,
ya..end up,he wanted to play too.

that time,
the weather was burning hot,
maybe he's worried,
so he keep asking me to stay with him,
he dont let me continue.

(i keep urging myself to play.so i can have good improvement)
i dont like,
i dont like to sit one side while they enjoying.
watching them,will make me feel that,
how stupid i am,is just a ball...
eventhough i wanted to play with them,
but i know if i play,
i will make them run much to take back the ball.
cause,i play until so sucks.

so,
i rather to one side,
enjoy looking around...

haih,
im too tired,
so i cant control my mood very well..
aihs.

he keep asking me what happen,
asked me to tell him..
so,i told him.
and end up,i cried like a small kid over there.
so embarassing.T.T

i complaint alot,
i pushed him away when he trying to hug me,
i refused to looking at him.
i pushed his hand away.
im bad.

i did not want all this to happen.
sobs.
but all these seem like keep on playing in my head.
keep affecting my mood.
im selfish isn't it?

always think for ownself,
keep on complain to make everything feel better to me.
hate myself so so much.
what i want now?
people already change so much for u,what u want?
why keep complain!
people want u,u must feel thankful dy.
sobs.
T.T
i really want him so much,
but i hate to show it.

as he always has his own freedom to do thing he want,
i cant always want him to stay beside me..
although not giving any hug.
i still feel comfortable and safe.
cause he is the only one can stay calm when im annoying.

haih,
can i just hug him without consider anything?
i want him by my side now.
i need him.
sobs.

(stop crying,stupid me!T-T)
keep complain la,
when u lose him,dont regret.
i cant stop blaming myself.

By,Yeannie.

written @8:03 PM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Dear our love diary,

wee~
im not here to complain,
but to praise the one i love the most!!!!

he did suprised me,
and he make my day the best.
eventhough before he give me suprise,i keep on complain alot.
but,
he really make our day so wonderful and special.

Thanks Dear!!!

i like the present u gave me so much!
aww..
u make me love u even more dy.

everything happened today,
really can see the outcome for being brave,
to bet on it again.Love.
eventhough its hard,
but....
this seems so worthy for me,
everything.
everything single thing.

especially my dear.
aww..
i really dont know how to express myself now,
how happy i am.now!
i dont even know how to thank you,dear!.

you really make me touched!
you know?!
RAWR.

By,Yeannie.

written @8:51 PM

Dear our love diary,

Today is our 28th day n oso our 4th week.

I love you always.

I'm sry tt i din tell u the reason i went TS yesterday,I wanted to give u a suprise ma.Sry o,dun angry k?Sayang bak.

Yesterday i din stay bak to teman dar not becos i wanted to go hav fun n leave dar alone.I really du1 to leave dar waiting there alone de.I really wanted to stay wid dar,enjoy every moment together be4 holiday starts.But i wanted to quickly buy the present for our 1st month anni.Actually should go on tuesday de,but suddenly jiale du1 go le.so oni change to wed lo.T.T.just feel lyk hugging dar tight now.

Dar always say dun wan let me worry too much.but do u noe tt dar keep hiding stuff from me oni makes me feel tt i hav not done my duty as a BF well,if not why dar dun dare to tell me straight.Pls dun blame urself again.Dar din do anithing wrong.

Today,i did sumthing wrong again.I broke the promise i made.I crossed the line again.But this time although it's just 2x2seconds,it's enough for me.Sry k?i will control de.wont get addicted de.Haha.

Dar,i did told you be4 tt i love you not becos of hu u r,it is becos of hu i m when i m wid u.I'm sry tt yesterday i show tt kind of emotion.Dar dun blame urself cos dar unable to cheer me up but others can do it.This is becos when i m wid dar,i really felt very comfortable n relax.doesn't nid to hide anithing from my laopo.i dun have to act infront of u.i dun hav to act tt i m happy when i doesn feel so(doesn't mean tt i m sad yesterday).Rawr.

Tt night,i din leave my phone aside,i was tired but i try to stay awake cos i wana accompany my laopo a little longer,cant help it,i really miss u too much.

Dar de fren questioned her:"Why so fast 1?"This is becos they think tt we r from May Intake oso.Not becos of dar is desperate or wad.Dun ever think tt.If dar desperate den i oso desperate lo.Dun simply think ok?Bite u o.

Dar wrote:

[i hate myself so so much.
sobs.
i tend to hide myself,
eventhough i noe somebody is always there to share.
but,
he is not deserve to worry so much.
he is not.T.T]

My response:

Dar say i dun deserve to worry so much, i can tell u sumthing.Dar deserver to be loved and taken care.It is my responsibility to take care of dar.Pls dun hide anithing from me.It is impossible tt i m not worry abt dar.IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

By,Jason

written @8:48 PM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Dear our love diary,

tomorrow will be our 4th week anniversary!!!
aww...
time pass so fast isn't??
and 3 more days to our first month anniversary!

too bad.
cant really celebrate for both.
due to the holidays.
hmm......
i dont want holidays,and i hate holiday now.

cant see him for like one week plus!
haih.so torturing.
what to do??

ok.
today,
is the first time i see him moody.
You know?those serious kind one?
aww..thats what i experienced today,
and i will never think that im good in cheering up him.anymore.

T.T.
so helpless.useless.
felt so especially when,
i work so hard to cheer him up,
his smile wouldn't last for 1 min.
but,when he is talking with others,
he smile so...*bling*
wuuu...

lucky,i dint "merajuk".
cause i dont dare to.
XD.
and after that,
he is not emo at all dy.

think from another way,
isn't this good?
i cant bear to see him sad.
no way.
=)

*and.he did smtg to me!ahhhh..warning o!haha.yellow card!*

By,Yeannie.

written @10:38 PM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

maybe.
he cant read this.
XD.

haih.
tml,
he wont be staying with me,
and i lied.
i pretend like i dont care.

but actually,
i want him to stay so much.
i hate to be alone.
now i really got no idea,
what i can do during that free time.
T.T

haih,
he should enjoy himself.
i cant always go out,
doesn't means that he must always accompany me,
reject every outing for me.
no!he should enjoy.

haha.say all this is just for self-comforting.
nvm.
just express it out over here,
so i can feel better.

(i enjoying the song.First Love.eventhough i just understand some of the english words she sang)

By,Yeannie.

written @9:31 PM

Dear our love diary,

Morning,
i dont feel good at all.
im worried,
smtg might happen.
"how come he will leave his hp aside when he know im free to sms already"
"aihss..what can i do when he is not around?"
"where he will be going?"
"y he like hiding me from smtg?not something that i expected gua..sobs.."

eventhough im rushing,
i still take some time to online.
to see whether he dropped any important msg over here or not.
T.T

after reading,
i feel much more better,
but still.
awww.......

but today i've learned to pretend,
which look kinda real..
(haha.maybe.)
ngeks ngeks.

hmm..i need a real tight hug.
im craving deadly.
i want.
but not in crowd.@.@
haih.....too cure my mood,or whatever.
i just need one hug.thats really what and the only thing i want.

hmm.
today,i saw my friend when im with him.
and her friend questioned her:"why so fast one?"
maybe im sensitive.
im too sensitive that people will look me as one kind.
"Desperate and Cheap"

I DONT KNOW!
i seem like over-worried already.
i dont know..
just feel like screaming,
shout until my lungs burst.
im not happy.
sobs.

i got many question marks in my mind.
why this?why that?
i need a place to hide.
i dont want anyone to see me like this.
really annoying!
even cry.i will cry when nobody around.
i dont feel like disturbing people.
make people worry about me,
just because of some silly things,
just because my swinging mood.

i hate myself.so so much!
sobs.
i tend to hide myself.
eventhough i know somebody is always there to share.
but,
he is not deserve to worry so much.
he is not.T.T

(i need a hug right now.)
if i continue to behave in this way,
something will really happen,for sure.

By,Yeannie.

written @8:20 PM

Monday, May 25, 2009

Dear our love diary,

Dar ar,i noe i maybe abit too "sticked" to dar during lecture.I will try to control myself de k?Studies always come 1st.Muackz.but when dar show tt tired face,i oso feel no energy too.I prefer my energetic darling.Keep talking talking talking de lovely laopo.

Hehe,
today we finally took our very 1st photo together(taken by ourselves).Dar,you really look very pretty in the photo.really not lyk "hak mui" la.i wil try to get myself tanned(if it is possible).Haha.

Sha sha de dar,

now dar got our photos,so cannot forget how i look lyk wor.Dar de every details oso i "saved" in my brain n heart le o.Hehe.

I love you o...

By,Jason.

written @9:41 PM

Dear our love diary,

we managed to capture pictures,
just few.
=D
but nvm,
its enough cause i target one to be our blog profile's picture.

^^
...
.....
hmm,
maybe im just bit too tired,
so.
i dint really got the mood to argue with him.
as in like fighting with him in words,
not serious one.
haha~~
im not emoing o!!!

during class,
maybe he just too worried that im hiding smtg again,
he wanted to hug me tight.
but,i dont want to see lecturer's eyes like.
"hey.what the X they doing inside my class?"
T.T
so i keep push him away.

aihss..
i wanted to hug him tight too.
but whenever lecturer looking at me,
i tend to avoid being too close with him.
(i perasan lecturer looking at me.haha.)
aihs.
dont simply think that i dont love u o!!!
T.T!!
cannot o...
aihs..

GOSH.
i hate myself so so much!

during recess.
i think im impatient again.
i dint wait for him to accompany me,
and i walked to SAD myself.
aww...

what the X going on with me?!
knock my head hard please.

By,Yeannie.

written @7:08 PM

took it at Volleyball court.
and i edited it.
ngeks.
^^
izit nice???

By,Yeannie

written @7:03 PM

By,Yeannie.

written @6:29 PM

Friday, May 22, 2009

sei lo..
i look so dark bside him...
and.i look so retarded.
GOSH!

T.T
nvmla.must save inside our blog.

By,Yeannie.

written @11:04 PM

Dear our love diary,

22th day on the 22th of May,
nice?
and today is the MOST memorable day for us.
not any big day.
just in our way,its memorable.......
haha.

well,
morning.actually planned to find him,
but due to lack of hands,
i sponsored mine.

at first,
me and him were quite energetic for the game.
but..,
during lunch time,he seems so down and unhappy....
i thought he was just too tired.
run here and there without water..
(heartache.)
so i stay silent and just keep watching him.
stay beside him.

until i realized he was not ok,
then at that time,
i only ask him.what happen.....
T.T..wuu.i should feel it earlier.

he dint talk much.
but,i seems like got the power to read him..
is like.wow...
thats nice.haha.
and i got the power to make him smile,
easily.

whats the way?
A kiss.
haha.right dear??

aww.
make me feel so proud with myself leh~~
haha.just joking la.

and,
there is a good news for myself.
my dear changed.
he changed until even more caring dy.
he understand what im thinking now.
(T.T.touching.when i think back every scene.make me feels like crying.)

he really make me feel so happy.
he make me really believe that,
actually there is a guy will really love me,
care of me.pamper me.
he make me know,how precious i am,for him.
he make me know,
i can be happy also.
i deserve to be loved.
hmm...

dear,really thanks alot.
Alot alot.
really thanks.sobs...
T.T.

wuu..i know u will be saying me sha poh again.

By,Yeannie.

written @10:18 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Jason Chong,
grr..
dont so fast giv reponse la.....
T.T

oi.
dont try to change urself after u read all these posts.
if..
ni si ding le!

By,Yeannie

written @8:27 PM

My tears fall uncontrollably when i read dar's post.i'm really sry.i promise i wil mind my words.i should not joke abt these stuffs.i din noe tt dar will really take it so seriously.

i really du1 dar to leave me,

i feel very sad rite now.

will you forgive me?i promise i wont do it again...T.T

By,Jason.

written @8:05 PM

Dar,erm,actually i oso dunno wad to say.i think maybe i m not sensitive enough.many things maybe to me is nothing,but to dar maybe it would mean another.today when dar ask me why i like dar,y i will choose u.not tt i cant find an answer,it just tt i cant find a suitable word to express my feelings.actually i can say i love everything abt u.wad i love the most is the time i spend wid dar.every minute every seconds means alot to me.dar must believe tt it is not becos of i m lokking for a partner n dar is desperate.NOT EVEN CLOSE.dun simply think k?muackz.i feel very comfortable when i m wid u.every smile of urs will make me smile.every tears u drop will make me sad.i m serious in this relationship,no matter now or in the future.i still wan chen yeanteng as my gf n my future laopo.It's not tt i wana manja dar,but when i lie on dar's shoulder,i feel tt i can let go off everything,everything tt make me feel sad,moody.although i m the male doesn mean i cant be weak.every person wil hav their weak spot,including me.

"I love you not becos of hu u r,is becos of hu i m when i m wid u."I love you darling,n i really mean it.Happy 3rd week.

By,Jason.

written @7:45 PM

Dear our love diary,

today,
my mood.
were just like roller coaster,
go up and down.
up and down in sudden.

morning,
i woke up with a lovely reply from my dear.
"Happy 3rd week anniversary...."

i smile.eventhough im so so tired.
i sleep again soundly,
although its already 6.45.
i know its worth to stay awake until so late.

then,
at first dear dint really hold my hand.
maybe,its really annoying...
so im ok with it.

during lunch,
my mood really bad.worst.
ya.
the coaster was going down,that time.

i pretending im ok.
really hard.
i cant manage to buy food to stuck my brain.
stop it from keep thinking and repeating things that i really mind.
i keep on feed myself with choco.

maybe.choco worked.
it make me smile fakely..
or maybe.i dont want to let anyone know.
so.i smile....

XD.
ei,i really pretend until so real ok?
but,why he can still look through my face smile?
haha.
this explain why he is my BF now.

sharp 3.25pm.
A kiss.cure me from being EMO.
awww......
^^.

aihs.
maybe im too sensitive with the words he said.
maybe i really take it too serious.
really serious.

aihs.
i dont know whats in my mind now.
i scare,i have to leave him further away.
i scare,lectures from my parents.
i scare,being so so useless.
i scare,to let people know.im sensitive.
i scare,others will feel that im annoying.

when he said:
"go la.go Malacca la."
"yalo.she just know how to eat only."
"haih,somemore always let ppl gek."

aww..
those really make me nearly cry on spot.
hmm.

anyway.
im fine now.
i dont want anyone to worry.
especially him.
he seems like realized i always moody.
wuuu.....
i dont want hear this from him.

"why u moody again?why u like that again?"
No No!!!

haih,
i should be happy.
i will.im trying.

i Smile.=D
ngeks.
(oi,i know u now wanted to scold me sha poh o..i know one o!smile la~)

By,Yeannie.

written @7:00 PM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Dear our love diary,

these can said to be the only two photos,
which i saw before.
others took lots of our photos.
we dint capture our picture by our own before.
we dint get to do that.
T.T...

aww.and,
we both look so....
plump!
haha.

By,Yeannie

written @9:57 PM

Dear our love diary,

after lecture by dear,
i decided to open this blog.
to share every single thing that i cant express it through speaking.

after this few weeks,
i realized,my jealousy level rising.
eventhough i tend to hide it.but...
so far.still under control.
not that serious yet.
trusting and believe in each other can cure.

and now,
i try to catch up everything.
sports and studies.
i want to have more things to talk with him.
i dont want to seem so useless.
talent-less.

hmm.i think these are just very small thing.
with just little effort,
i can make it.
for him.

all these sound like i had a very hard time with my another half.
but,this is not true.
i enjoy every minute when i be with him.
eventhough he is a little bit over manja-ing me,
make me felt like im the BF than a GF.
haha.

whenever he put his hand behind,
trying to give me sign that he wants to hold my hand,
i feel so warm.
feel like im protected.
i wont lost my way if i hold this hand.tightly.

i dont need hugging or kisses much,
just have to hold my hand tight.
then,i will know..
you will always by my side,
"dont worry.anything happen,i will by your side."

sometimes,
i really try hard to hold my tears.
happy,sad,heartache....

happy,
when.......
"tell me every single thing k?we can share,dont have to hide.i want you to be happy also.ok?"

sad,
when.......
he treats me very very good.and i blame myself for not treating him as good as he treats me.

heartache,
when.......
he said its ok.nvm....
when.......
i feel like im being abandon,because i dont know about what he interested with,
im so stupid and useless.

haha.
i'm even more stupid to think like that and feel so.right my dear??
eeeeeeeeeee...
feel like hugging him tight now!

tml is our great great week anniversary again.
our 3rd weeks.
aww....
i will standby until 12.
i dont care.

i dont mind to become stupid for once again.ngeks.

i heart you,dear!muacks~

By,Yeannie.

written @8:19 PM